Coping with loss, big and small, in the wake of a LEMS diagnosis
Grieving the past is an important part of adjusting to life with LEMS
It had been a good day. My daughter Grace and I accomplished things I never thought she’d be able to do again. Her diagnosis of Lambert-Easton myasthenic syndrome (LEMS) several years earlier had upended our world and everything she had known. But with the right treatments, Grace had made huge strides. She was doing more than she’d done in years.
On that day, we strolled through the mall and went out to dinner. Grace even had enough energy to take a short walk on the beach.
As we were driving home, Grace offhandedly said how much she missed playing sports. Before her diagnosis, she loved being part of a team. She had dabbled in basketball, volleyball, and softball. Of course, with the onset of LEMS, simply walking took all of Grace’s energy. Sports were out of the question.
She made the comment quickly and the conversation moved on to lighter things. But shortly after, I circled back and affirmed Grace in her feelings of loss. I knew she needed to process the grief about what LEMS took from her life.
Reflecting on other losses
I was reminded of this conversation recently on a day when I’d reached the brink of exhaustion. I’d been running around all day, being all things to all people, as most moms do. All I could think about was coming home, getting into a warm tub, and stealing away for a few minutes to read a book.
As I prepped my bath, I reflected on all the years of running baths for my kids. Grace especially loved a good soak in the tub. She, like me, loved the water hot, and she’d play with her My Little Pony figurines until her skin shriveled and the water turned cold.
Of course, we know now that a hot bath is not recommended for someone with LEMS, as it can exacerbate muscle weakness. For that reason, Grace has not taken a bath since the onset of her LEMS more than five years ago.
Most might say having to give up baths isn’t a big deal, and usually that would be true. But in this case, it indicates a larger loss for someone with LEMS. They’ve given up many of the “small” things in life, but most patients have also experienced significant losses. Some have been forced to give up careers, athletics, hobbies, travel, and educational pursuits, all because of LEMS.
Big or small, a loss is still a loss. We grieve it, miss it, and oftentimes need to find something to fill the void it leaves.
Grief shouldn’t be ignored while adjusting to life with a rare disease. Yes, good things still await us, but to ignore what we’ve lost would be a grave injustice. It’s important to acknowledge all the ways that LEMS affects us.
What do you miss doing since your LEMS diagnosis? Please share in the comments below.
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